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Ceci unplugged

I used to care

I used to care about how I looked.
How I dressed.
I used to do my make up every day, and I was good at it.
I used to take selfies.
I used to dress pretty neatly, there was a thought behind it.

And now I realised that the 2 years I've been here, I don't care anymore.
I don't know if it's good or bad.

Matt Cutts: Try something new for 30 days

Well, I ought to try something new for 30 days.

I was thinking of

• walking 1h/day for 30 days
• writing 2h/day for 30 days
• be ruthlessly plant-based for 30 days
• apply for 1 job/day for 30 days
• paring down for 30 days

Let's begin!

Ps. not everything at once but I've already started with the 1h/day walk and it feels pretty good. I hope to write 2h/day tomorrow and continue doing that too. 

I want to become an editor when I grow up

Since I'm in seach for a new job and a new life technically, I started thinking about what I really want to do. Profession wise. And it came to me, just like that. Not just like that, this is something that I always wanted but didn't pursue thoroughly. I want to become an editor. I started in 2006 and studied Nordic Languages, Swedish at the UNiversity in order to get a degree in Swedish to become and editor. But I really hated that course and Swedish too. I was boring and kind of difficult. So naturally I failed the course and my dream was put on the shelf in the closet until I was back seaching for happiness. Instead I applied for a course in English but didn't even go to the first class. Instead I worked at the theatre to earn money and started to re-think my goals. I was thinking of biomedical engineering, psychology, business and yes, I turned to business. But you all know, probably not, that I ended up with Media and Communication as a major and now a degree in. So I'm almost there.

So what do you do when you know what you want to do?
Step 1: You google: how to become and editor

Step 2: Follow the steps you find on WikiHow.

Step 3: You are now and Editor!

Morning-haven't-gone-to-bed-yet-thoughts

If I'm lucky enough I never loose my sense of humour.

Begin again

I quit my job today.
I've been working there almost full time for more than 2 years and been loyal to the company for almost 10 years. It was time.
I should have done this years ago, but I was retaredly slow. I became comfortable with having a fairly steady income and was just living life in a mildly destructive way.

It is time for me to start living again. I was dead for more than 2 years. I can't remember much of 2014 except that I was working, sleeping, hanging out with colleagues and that's about it. Oh, I got my first own apartment, yay!
2015 was a long year. I can't remember much except that I worked, slept, hung out with colleagues and yeah, that's about it.

As time goes by I see a pattern. I'm slow. I cope and just move on with my feet in mud  and then it hits me how miserable I am and I realise that I let myself go and should have picked up the paste a bit sooner. This is the second time this happens.

The good thing is that I always land on my feet, so it bodes well. My plan is to first get some air. Apply for jobs, Get my identity and life back. Find out what I want from life. Find the through line.

Back to Nature

I wrote a blog post on my collab blog ginger & chives about how I want to get back to nature. I really do. Perhaps this should be a diary on how I try, fail and succeed. I want to start living without distractions, write and read more, doing nature stuff like hiking, climbing, being close to the ocean, live on the bare essentials.

To do:

• detox from the Internet and my computer
• try climbing
• go hiking in nature
• write 2 hours/day
• 4h/day
• 6h/day
• 8h/day
• paring down . the most essential - no distractions

Let's see what happens.

Infinitely Polar Bear

This is the kind of movie that makes me want to buy a TV with some kind of player for films. This is the kind of movie that makes me want to stay inside and decorate my apartment until it's as beautiful as theirs. This is the kind of movie that makes me realise that I'm almost 30 but I still feel like 11 or 8. Watch this movie because it's the best.

my partner

I wanna meet someone who loves food and is a great cook so I can eat well.
He tells me stories every night so I can sleep.
I can do the dishes and he can do the laundry.
I will make playlists and so will he so we can listen to music while we clean.

What's life all about?

Learn what's life is all about?
Is it writing?
Eating?

Favourite Artists

• Wassily Kandinsky - die blaue reiter, ljuvligt, det sitter i de små detaljerna
• Dorothea Tanning - drömmande, storslaget
• Marc Chagall - romantiskt, mörkt
• Gustav Klimt - vackert
• Marcel Duchamp - rockstar of the artists, påminner om Yuan

Fashion Icons

"If you ever see me in a social setting wearing any sort of sportswear, then you know I’m in crisis."

- Bill Nighy 

Passion according to the Minimalists

when was the last time you felt overwhelmed with excitment?
What were five other (different) experiences like this?
Why were you excited each of those times?
Which experiences were you excited about for the longest period of time?
Was there a common thread among the things that excited you?
What did excitement look like? (How did your physiology change in these situations? How was your posture? Your facial expressions? Your breathing? Your heart rate? What else was happening with your body?

Writing

To write, to be a writer, I have to trust and believe in myself as a speaker as a voice for the images. I have to believe that I can communicate with images and words and that I can do it well. A lack of belief in my creative self is a lack of belief in my total self and vice versa -- I cannot seperate my writing from any part of my life. It is all one. When I write it feels like I'm carving bone. It feels lke I'm creating my own face, my heart - a Nahuátl concept. My soul makes itself through the creative act. It is constantly remaking and giving birth to itself through my body. It is learing to live with la Coatlicue that transforms living the Borderlands from a nightmare into a numinous experience. It is always a path and stat to something else.
Thlilli, Tlapalli

She writes while other people sleep. Something is trying to come out. She fights the owrds pushes them down, down, a woman with morning sickness in the middle of the night. How much easier it would be to carry a baby for nine months and the expel it permanently. Theses continueous multiple pregnancies are going to kill her.
Xóchitl in Cuícatl is Nahuátl for flowers and song, flor y canto

IMMERSE PRACTISE
JUST WRITE!!!